Evolution

My future is one of growth and evolution. I consider the past few years to be a detour. A strengthening exercise. One that was meant to break me, expose me, humble me, and grow me.

Of course, it’s been hard to accept the actions of others. To appreciate their faults and thank them for experiences I still don’t quite understand.

And sometimes I fail; hatred steps into my heart. It takes over and my hackles arise in deep vengeance.

But, I recover quickly. I don’t think the hatred is bad. It’s scars and wounds that sometimes break open and bleed. The pain makes me angry. But the salve of love helps it heal so much faster, so I’ve realized.

Now I’m faced back towards my due North. My compass has stopped spinning wildly. The seas have calmed and my heart doesn’t bleed all over everything anymore.

With the calm seas, I see a path. A similar path as before. One that’s familiar. The path of life that I was on before until I got knocked off course. Like making my way back home, only I am not back where I started. This place is not a destination, it’s a journey.

Now I have a new lens in which to view this path. A lens of more maturity, more experience, more faith in the unknown.

I was unprepared for this path originally. But now, I feel a deeper connection to it. I feel it calling me. Now I’m ready. Now I may resume.