A Whole New Life

I had put my blog on hold for a while to focus on myself and my mental health.

Every winter (for the last decade) I have experienced severe mental pain and a difficulty functioning through my daily routines. I told my therapist I had seasonal depression, however, I was in denial of any further issues; she carefully and reasonably told me I should definitely see a psychiatrist to find some further help. I was terrified of the idea – not because I had anything against people who need medication to help their life (I don’t judge you because you need an inhaler, same thing) but because I was afraid of the effects of the medication.

Summer came, and I was still struggling daily with this “seasonal” depression.

I spent the first few months of Spring/Summer waiting for the “fog” to clear like it normally does when the sun starts to shine again. It didn’t. I finally broke down and decided enough was enough. I visited my very first psychiatrist. She spent hours with me as I explained my life and my fears. She explained her conclusions in great detail and strongly recommended a prescription to help me live my life without pain.

She changed my life.

After a few days, I started to notice a difference. I felt like myself again. I got up in the morning and accomplished my to-do lists with ease. I felt like I had enough energy to last me all day instead of feeling drained from the moment I woke up. I actually completed my school projects on time because they stopped feeling overwhelming and terrifying.

Opportunity.

After a few months, I started feeling like I could actually take charge of my life. I could do the things that I aspired to do without worrying about whether or not I’d be “up to” scheduled events and future commitments. Around this time, I was presented with an opportunity to take on wellness coaching. Yes, I know, it’s a lot at once. I am a full-time student and a full-time employee which already equals about 70 or 80 hours a week.

What on Earth has possessed me to do this?

Change. It’s a word that terrifies some, but it completely exhilarates me. I have lived the past few years of my life struggling to do day-to-day activities. It’s been a long road of self-love and self-care to get this far. Since I’ve been able to tackle the self-love exercises with a clear and healthy mind, I feel more than motivated to share this knowledge with others. I am motivated to help others because I have lived the life that I see so many people struggling through – it makes me so sad to see others suffer the way I did.

Of course, no one can coach others without learning how to do so properly.

I’ve been putting myself through training to learn how to assist others in healthy living. I feel this extreme urge to help others to life to the fullest now that I’ve been able to rise above that fog that held me down for so long. I can’t promise I will have a weekly blog post up, but I can promise that my clients get my full attention when they need it. I might be busy, but my focus has shifted and I’m busy in ways that benefit those around me.

Not sure if you need coaching?

Self-love is a battle with your mean girl (or “mean guy” if you’re male). She tells you all the things you need to hear to keep you small and forging through life with negativity. Not sure what I mean by “mean girl” – check out Melissa Ambrosini’s book by clicking here and she’ll tell you all about it.

Take a moment to reflect on your life. Are you struggling with feelings of doubt or self-hate? Do you look at yourself and wish you were someone different? Can you look and the mirror and say I am a gift to this world just the way I am?

Maybe…you need some outside help to allow you to reach your full potential. Think about it.

-XOXO